“Here comes the sun, here comes the sun, little darling, Here comes the sun” The Beatles – Here Comes The Sun (2019 Mix) – YouTube runs through my head as I write this and it fills me with peace, joy, happiness and love. After being through a mental war for the majority of my life, I must say I am thankful it is over. I am so thankful not only that it is over but am also thankful for the events of my entire life. I’ve had so many blessings along the way, especially through my journey with my children. They have given me so much, so very much.
It has come to a time that I need to focus on myself. It was a long time coming as I’ve spent the majority of my long life just trying to meet what I considered the near impossible needs of others. I will say, I needed to learn. Sometimes I’m just a slow learner, just a slow dancer, just a slow prancer, just a slow vixen, that’s just what I was. But I’m different now, I’m just a slow driver at this point in my life.
“It’s all right, it’s all right, it’s all right now” The Beatles – Here Comes The Sun (2019 Mix) – YouTube is in my heart and I am so grateful. When I think back on my life, I see God’s hand was in every aspect of it and my journey was actually very beautiful, oh so beautiful. I had so many people teaching me and cheering me on while I took my time learning. I always was a little bit of a stubborn child. And a little bit of a wild child. And a little bit of a little shit but so what, who isn’t? We’ve all got a little bit of dark and a whole lotta light our lives. That’s just the way we were made. I’m not afraid of failing now, because I know I will pass the ultimate test which is to love the higher power of the universe, who I call God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ, with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my mind. I do know, with a certainty, that He has an unwavering love for us, and will carry us through all our trouble. I do know, with certainty that He will only give us as much as we can handle. I do know, with certainty that I love Him with all my heart. And I do know that with Him in my heart I have room to love so many more people than before. Like a reverse of the grinch who stole Christmas, Jesus has crept into my heart but the output has been the same and my heart has grown three sizes or more.
It has taken my entire life to realize I can just do my best and that’s good enough. That’s all any of us is required to do. It’s so simple, really, just do your best, and that’s good enough. That’s actually the very best you can do. When it all comes to a head and you are in the final line of fire, just know the bullets are mini marshmallows and relax. Just relax, you don’t have to be the Roadrunner any more. Who’s afraid of being pelted by marshmallows, and mini ones at that?
If I had one piece of advice to give someone, anyone, I would just say focus on beautiful things. Just look at what is pleasing to you and hear the sounds you want to hear. When you’re scared, just dance to the music that you choose, not just any music, it has to be music that sounds good to your ear. If it’s not the right tone, well, it’s easy, just turn the station. And if the radio’s broken, try Youtube, and if Youtube doesn’t work, little child, you’ve always got the song in your heart. And if you’re a little outta breath and worried your voice will sound a little squeaky, well baby, you can hum. And if you don’t quite get the vibration on those beautiful lips of yours when you hum, well, that’s okay, just sing it in your head. Really, guard your mind, not with armor and a canon; just with a gentle feather, and whisper of a summer’s breeze, and butterfly kiss. It’s okay baby, you got this. Amen